Something Different

I've spent my whole life trying to fit in and be the good person, doing the same thing everyone else does. Get up go to work, come home get ready for work, rinse and repeat. I guess there's nothing wrong with living life this way, millions of people do it every day.

I find myself entering the second half of my life by myself. My son is grown and off starting his life as an adult and I find I feel as if I am not living mine to the fullest. I feel there has to be something more to life then just doing the same thing every day, day in day out. I feel stagnant and that I need to move forward but I'm not sure how or what I want to do.

1990 Jayco J-Series PUP

I find I want something more. I want to meet new people and see new things. I've joined a couple of online women's retreat groups and I've been reading a lot of different self-help books in attempt to find out who I am and exactly what I would like to do with the rest of my life. I found I really have no clue who I am or what it is I want to do with myself once I was alone with myself and left to decide what it is I like to do or even want to do.

I've recently started getting back into art. I used to draw a lot when I was younger and actually took commercial art classes in High School. I never pursued it though and instead went to work right out of school and except for the summer after graduation I've been working ever since. I lost art a long the way, life sometimes just rolls on and we stop doing things we used to enjoy.

I've spent the last two years doing online retreats that involve art and finally this year things started clicking for me. I started painting and actually writing a book. The creative outlet has been really enjoyable and I found I missed it more than I realized.

Some how while on Facebook, I got an ad for Sisters on the Fly, I have no idea what triggered the ad, but I was smitten with all the pretty little trailers and the idea of being around a lot of positive women on weekend retreats and just getting away from everything and doing something different.

The idea sat in the back of my head. They said in all their posts you didn't need the trailer but lets face it, it really is the main draw. The little Wendy house/She Cave that you can weekend in like a vacation home on wheels.

I thought to myself how cool is that, but I'd never be able to afford a trailer. So I started looking at tents and things and trying to figure out how I could join a local retreat and try it out.

Then another ad popped up from Facebook market place with a little metal trailer. It was $1900 and just what I wanted to be able to fix up and travel around with. I thought it was really great but where would I get $1900 to buy it with?

At this point in my life I've been working the same job for 12 years. Things there have changed a lot in the last two years and I've found myself trying to find a new job. It's to the point where for the first time in my life I actually want to leave my job without having another job. Which is really scary and totally not my normal character. I was looking at my 401 K options because I was ready to just quit and use it to live on until I found another job. I saw there was an option where I could take a little over $2,000 out of it and not have to pay it back. The first thing I thought about was the little trailer I wanted. So I took the money. (I am not advocating for people to raid their 401 K's this is something I chose to do.)

I called and the trailer was still available and I made a plan to see it on Saturday. Then it sold. I was disappointed but then this pop up trailer showed up for only $500. I was really intrigued although I didn't think I would really want a pop up trailer. I went to look at it and although it needed some work, I decided to buy it.

It's probably the one of the most spur of the moment things I've ever done. (The first being moving to NC from NJ but that's another story) I didn't think it through, I didn't sit on it for days and let my anxiety talk me out of it, I just did it and it just felt right.

So that brings me to today. I'm going to blog about fixing up and renovating my little pop up trailer and my adventures learning how to take care of and travel with it and eventually joining Sisters on the Fly and going places with that group.

I hope you enjoy following along with me on my adventures with my two dogs and Teddy the PUP trailer. (I named it Teddy because the family I bought it from used it a lot and it's been loved to death like an old teddy bear)

My next post will be giving Teddy a much needed bath and a better idea of what repairs will need to be done to the outside before I pop it open and work on the inside.